Dreams, Aspiration, Perspiration...

Recently, I am feeling rather disorientation and down with my own life. Things around me seems to be doing alright but something inside me seems to be missing and I can't seem put a finger to it.

Dreams... It is something that is always in one's mind and it should be something that keeps one going. It is a far-fetched reality that one strives to achieve and reach. Be it something tangible like money; or motivating like carving an idea into physical reality, these are things and should be things that one have within to push himself forward to new heights.

Aspiration... Someone or some 'thing' to look up to as a model or role-model. There will always be someone in one's life that he admires and trying all he can to live up to his standard. Pushing beyond bounds to attain that 'thing' that makes his soul feel satisfied.

Perspiration... The long hard road to bring oneself to reach the above 2. The everyday work that makes the tiny step forward to bring oneself closer towards them. The soulful giving everyday in one's life knowing that he is giving for a reason and for a greater good; and to know that the result is his to keep.

However, in recent times, I feel that I am lacking in all 3 of the above. I feel that I have lost sight of my dreams, dampen my aspirations and resulting in my loss of perspiration towards them.

Inside me, it breaks myself down to know so. And I really need to get my mind back on track. I know I am able to do so. With all the good people that make up my life story, I thank you all. You all may not know the impact you make to my life but the fact is that you do make a important impact to me everyday. I am lucky to have met you all, even if it was only a brief coincidence. I believe in one sentence I heard before. 'It is the little things you do in life everyday that makes a big difference.'

With time and effort, I will get out of this slump and relight my inner flame.

Thank you all,
Ken

Love is a journey...

To my darling bb,

I do not know whether you would visit me blog and read this but I really hope you do. 'cos I want to let you know that I cherish you...

Things that I may not usually show in words.... Things that I do not usually show in person at times... But I hope you do feel that you are the special one for me at those little times I show how I truly feel for you.

I am not a person who usually pour affectionate words of praise and love... but I try to use my subtle ways to show that I love her... Simple day to day things... Things like making coffee that you like... Fetching you to school when it rains... pampering you to slp.... sayang you when you need a hug and hug you back... Things that I can do and will do continuously 'cos I want to.... I want my bb to be safe... to enjoy being around me... and to be happy....

It hurts me to see my bb being sad... especially if the reason is because of me...

I am no saint.... I make mistakes all the times.... like saying the wrongs things... not doing certain stuffs.... not being sensitive enough... making you angry.... But I do not mean for those things to happen.... and I am doing my best to make sure that I am not bad as I was the previous day....

I want to be a better person because of you... 'cos I love you... And I hope my bb to shower me with her ways of love as well...

I can feel it... sometimes even when you scold me... you shout at me... when you are upset with me.... you show how much you truly care for me.... I do know it.. and feel it...

bb... this road is very long... and I will do all I can do slowly and walk this journey with you... Like I said in our photo... Let our future be forever filled with happiness and laughter forever n ever....

I love you.

Your big bb